Carry me.

Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail

Ughhhhhhh this is so not what I want to talk about!
All I want is to buy a new, giant, deliciously roomy, new, wonderful bag...

I carry so much fucking garbage on my shoulder!
-Book(s) (often more than I even carried when I was in school no less).
-Food, because I am often gone most of the day.
-A multiplying number of pens.
-Every receipt anyone hands me.
-Luckily my sketchbook doesn't fit... Which is why I need a new bag.
-Shoes, socks, scrubs, or normal clothes to change out of scrubs into.
-Baby food jars I recycle/reuse from work.
-Wallet, phone, lighters.
-Ballet shoes.
Endless amounts more of garbage garbage garbage!

If I ever get the bag I pining after I will properly photograph said bag and all of it's contents. Until then...

I am starting Acupuncture.
It's all I can think about.
I had an initial exam today and start my sessions on Monday.
I AM SO EXCITED!
It's something I have always wanted to do and something I have always thought would make me feel better. Now I am officially starting and I can't wait!
i was so nervous all of today about the initial exam, but I feel really comfortable with the office and the place and the people. Which is good. I can't wait to get started and its so much cheaper than I expected. Expensive, still, but a lot cheaper than I thought.
It's within reach.
Freedom from this anxiety feels within reach.
Well, not from the sources, I guess, but. This a way to deal with it, better than I am dealing with it/have been dealing.
OMYGOD.
ACUPUNCTURE!

Am I morbid?
I said something mildly morbid at work the other day, anyone who is my friends would have just, never though twice? I don't even remember what I said, but my coworker was like, "And you're favorite movie must be... Harold and Maude?" What is with this movie being so unbelievably awesome and everyone thinking of me in terms of that movie?! I guess there is worse to be concerned about.

So thats it.

Cheers!