Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail

There is one thing I would love to forget. But I become really good at replacing bad memories with wonderful ones, so this will be no different.

The first time I talked to Tyler, alone and not at a party was in my studio. We talked about random stuff just to cover up our shyness and to try and calm the parts of us that wanted nothing more than to just tear each other apart. I remember him mentioning how he had a car and could take me to Pat Catans or something, if I needed to go ever. I told him he should come to my studio during his class breaks more often and that I would always make him tea. Probably, 2 days later (?) perhaps just the next day, hah, he visited again during said break. I busied my nervous self with making him a cup of tea and as I handed it to him he said he "needed to get back to class", but that he "wanted to do something" and he walked toward me in that movie sort of way and just kissed me. It all happened so quick in that awkward, cute sort of way, where you forget to breathe for a second and the world falls around you and you become the only two things that matter at all, and then all too quickly it's over. My hands rushed to hide my blushing cheeks and I had the biggest, goofiest grin on my face as he shyly smiled and walked away.I hurriedly said to him to meet me there after his class, that we could go for a walk if he liked and then I text Char an all caps HE KISSED ME!

We walked together in the freezing February cold, holding hands I think... Trying so hard to figure out things to say. I know I asked if it was too forward of me to invite him to my room. He took me home and we awkwardly kissed again as I told him I needed to take my time, I had just gotten out of a bad "thing" and I immediately regretted saying that as he said okay and kissed me again before he left. All I did was think about him all night as I had been doing since the first time I talked to him. The next day I called him to ask if I could use him and his car to have a ride to work. He said yes and later as he drove me there, we were stopped at a red light and I said, "I really just needed an excuse to kiss you again."

Now. I have him all the time. Just T. It's the only first kiss that matters.