Keep ourselves.

So. Maybe I can fit a little update in here before work.
It's been a stressful week. I have had to go to work early for the past two days and today and tomorrow. Early as in, be there at 7:15, which means I have to get up at 5 to accomplish my routine of "taking my time". I just really like not rushing and having time to be online and drink some tea.
Kennel/tech work is getting a little easier for me. I am learning where things are and also just learning a lot of stuff I never thought I would know. I feel semi-useless in the back at work, but mainly because I have never been in that situation before, so I don't really feel comfortable with restraining and tubing and pricking all these cats... I did actually hold one down yesterday, which I had been having a hard time doing on Wednesday. I don't care how lovey your cat is at home, by the time it gets to the back room at the vet, it has become Satan himself. The cat I held down for bloodwork yesterday? Have you ever seen The Exorcist? It was kind of like that.
It is nice to be in a workplace where they actually take into consideration how I feel, though. They want to know how I am doing and if I am comfortable with stuff and they want to help me. It's a learning process, it's going to be a learning process for some time to come, but I am catching on quicker and overall feeling pretty good. This being my "shark week" and feeling pretty down on myself has caused some conflict, but I keep telling myself, "this is the lowest it can go, this is my first two weeks, they aren't going to fire me, I am strong and can do this, from here on out I can only move up and learn more."

T misses school and can't wait to start again in a few weeks. His excitement makes me excited and I can't wait to see what he does this year. I got a little sad last night, we were laying in bed and talking about Wooster and teachers and I.S. and whatnot... I miss the simplicity Wooster gave my life. The routine and freedom. It's hard not knowing what I want to do anymore, I had been so confidant in myself and my work as an artist when I was in school and I kind of lost that in the past year. I want to get back to that point, and I have some tentative plans to get there, it's just a bit of a waiting process.

I get off at noon today. T is off so we have plans to spend the day together, exploring new places. I am excited. I was hard the past few days where I would be at work and by the time I got home he wold be at work so we would see each other at 6:30 am and then not til 9:30 pm... A little lonely when this is the only person you know... We'll make friends though. Now that I will be making money, I can find myself a regular coffee shop to frequent and maybe a bar... Oh Cup o Joe and O'Reilleys, what I would have given for you to move to Boston with me...

Shower time.

F. ox