No Zzzz's for me.

I can't sleep. I don't know if it is the cup of delicious Lavender Earl Grey I had (it can't be can it? That was hours ago), or if it is the fact that my funds are running low, I still haven't found a job, I feel ugly and useless, I want desperately to make a friend, I want a job and a fun one at that (good luck), my sister thinks I look like a holocaust victim and this intrigues and weirds me out at the same time, I think I may be slipping into depression... Seasonal my ass.

So. since I can't sleep here are some things:
1. I saw the 50th anniversary, 35mm print, screening of Breathless.

While this greatly improved my dreary, rainy day, I was also disappointed to leave the theater and hear people speaking English.

"What is your greatest ambition in life?"

"To become immortal... and then die."
Jean-Paul Belmondo will forever give me goosebumps.

2. My best friend Char finally "got" Salinger.

It's a good thing she isn't me though. I'm a whore for literary celebrities and would fuck my way into Holden Caulfields life.
Keep reading girl. Fuck Catcher in the Rye, but the man was a wonderful, reclusive soul.
Nothing gets me harder for a cig and a dirty martini.

3. Books I am enjoying now:



Yes I am reading all three of these at the same time. Moby Dick will be my big accomplishment of the summer. I am looking forward to it.

4. Song I can't stop singing...


5. Me right now...

Alone and in the dark. How gross of me.

6. Doppelganger:

Duh.

Now this laptop is burning my legs. I shall put it and myself to sleep.
Goodnight little ones. Sweet dreams.

F. ox