I am feeling very anxious. Tyler is going after work to buy a bike from some guy on craigslist. I feel very nervous about any cash exchanges happening after dark and this one is worrying me so much I might explode. I am trying everything I can to not think about bad things but I can't stop. I want to be with him for it, but am too scared. Ugh. I have no idea what to do except to go shopping and try and clean the house. Maybe get lost in a french film until my phone rings and I know he is for sure safe.
I wish I had someone to hang out with. I wish I had a friend here who would be like, "let's go grab some coffee or a shot, we'll catch that Godard film you want so badly to see and when we get home, Ty will be there and all will be okay." I miss my fucking friends.
(EDIT 13.07.10) Tyler made it home safely last night. I jumped into his arms and cried, swearing I could never live without him.
Job replies are here and there. Fingers crossed, lucky charms on.
There is really nothing else to report since this morning. I am more than bored and need distraction...
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